Hi everybody, my H is spending the weekend at an air bnb with his GF in our city. I know he deserves to do this because I got together with a woman a few months ago that lead to the coming out process but it still feels shitty. We still live together and are supporting each other through the process. It’s true what everyone says that the pain, insomnia, fear and anxiety decreases as I survive the process.
Everything would be so much easier if the woman I fell for loved me too. I know I sound stupid to keep hoping she will but I think it is helping me deal with my H having a GF. She has been a really good friend through all this but I can’t stop feeling thirsty for her.
That’s all, my adult children are home for the holidays which is helping everything. Any thoughts would be appreciated.
Post by want2bhappy on Dec 29, 2018 7:18:48 GMT -5
Hi there, I’m reading this at 4am because I also have sleepless nights thinking about it all. First of all congratulations to you for being honest with yourself and your family. Be proud for being able to do that. I haven’t reach that point yet and the holidays and time with family is so painful right now with the guilt and sadness. A friend told me that losing her marriage felt like a death, even thought she initiated the breakup. If you look at it like that, maybe it helps to think about loving and remembering the life you had before but realizing that part is gone and all you can do is be thankful for the time you had. Maybe once you get through that grieving process you can start to work on building your new life. Love your kids and give yourself time to heal. Glad you have support from your kids, and your husband. Take care and thanks for posting.
Want2bhappy- thanks for your thoughtful reply. I’m sorry the holidays were so painful. That’s how I felt over Thanksgiving, a little over a month ago. Christmas was much better. That seems like a short time. I’m hoping it gets better for you soon too. The roller coaster slows down, fewer highs and fewer lows. I’m hoping 2019 brings us to a new, less stressful time. Take care