I understand that most women choosing to stay married are unlikely to post if there working to rebuild a relationship.. but I’m wondering, if you except the fact that your bisexual how do you continue to grow and except this part of yourself without feeling your settling for a hetro marriage and pushing this part of yourself back in the closet... especially when your husband refers to you as being bisexual “allegedly “!.. any thoughts welcome.
For me I think growth comes from following your heart no matter what you sexually identify as. And feeling whatever consequences there are to that. Good and bad. And being there in it. And gaining power from it. Owning your life and making decisions internally for yourself that fit despite pleasing or displeasing others. If you are living your heart’s truth with a partner you crave, I’m unsure if it would feel like “settling.” I don’t know. I also think growth comes from not following your heart as well, if you are really there, once again, in it. Feeling it all. What does that feel like? Is that good for you? What are the consequences both good and bad. Standing in that truth as well.
Defining and redefining your existence for yourself Is growth right? The only thing that is for sure is that change happens. And I think there is growth when you are true to yourself in those difficult moments of change.
On a practical level, finding your people. I feel like if you’re true to yourself that energy follows you and those people show up in your life to celebrate and validate living. Bisexual groups? Meetups for friendships. Hanging with queer people? Going to pride and supporting LGBTQ+ events and charities perhaps. Seeing yourself in that community helps in understanding who you are too. And I think that is growth.