I totally know that feeling. I went from working one day a week to (only now) about 3 1/2 days a week. I love my job but it's daunting to have this responsibility again and still be the primary care giver to my two boys. It's nothing compared to many doing so much more but it's more than I was used to since before my kids were born. I'm so lucky and privileged to have the career I do bc of my exH and parents. I want my boys to see that I am successful and hopefully inspire them to great career choices, too. But some days I cry feeling I'm not good enough to do all this, I can't ...then I have to channel Brené Brown and one of her great mantras. " ...no matter what gets done or is left undone, I am enough. Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid but that doesn't change the truth that I am also brave and worthy of love and belonging."
Cry, lean into your vulnerability but also know that you got this!!
I worry about what that would be like for me. I understand, though I also feel proud of you for having the opportunity. It's a big, but good, step. And, as you said, it allows for so much good to continue.
Wow, working full time is hard. I can barely keep my eyes open. My XH keeps trying to tell me that he is going to push for lower child support which is crazy. It gets me all worked up in fear every time and I need to calm down about it.
But seriously, I love my life. It’s a lot. Transitioning is exhausting. But it’s so much better than when we were together at the end there. It’s freedom. It’s privacy. It’s quiet. It’s right for me. I miss my kids but he takes good care of them and when they are with me it’s just us, and it’s good. We check in emotionally on a regular basis. They are adjusting really well. They love after school care. It’s been awhile now and I feel good about my decision. It’s a lot to take but I’m happy.