confused and heartbroken Jun 3, 2016 13:42:51 GMT -5
Post by helpplease on Jun 3, 2016 13:42:51 GMT -5
I am very new to the forum, so I will start by saying hello to all. I have secretly (well not so secretly) had strong feelings for a friend of mine who is a MW. Our kids are on the same sports teams so we see each other quite often during certain times of the year. Our little flirty relationship has progressed to a deeper relationship where we've shared lots of deep intimate thoughts. I have really fallen for her, and feel she has for me.. Although she is very loyal to her H and kids as I am loyal to my family. We text and chat daily via social media but when it comes time to seeing one another she's shy and almost stand offish.. Not sure if she's uncomfortable with her new found feelings, or if it's all something I have conjured up in my mind. It's been nearly 2 yrs of me waiting for her, knowing she's such a loyal person and also I need to think of my wife and family. This wanting for her is starting to take over. I will wait for her as long as it takes. She and family are moving a good distance away but they do have a vacation home here so we'll see each other occasionally but we are both becoming braver than ever before.. Do I tell her how I've been feeling all this time, and leave myself wide open to possible rejection, or continue to suffer in silence letting her go off never really knowing... I feel that if I told her now she would really feel the pressure, waiting til they're settled may be best that way she can focus on her new life without me. GOD I don't want to lose her... Selfish huh??